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intro: younger
01:37
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Back when I was younger
I felt more stronger
Living with no fear
Now I wish I could disappear
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sad b!tch
02:02
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You keep on telling me, to keep on smiling
But I feel like losing, to life: am I failing?
I’m a sad bitch, nothing heal this
Sad, sad bitch, come heal this
I’m a sad bitch, nothing heal this
Sad, sad bitch, come heal this
Easier said than done
The devil fucking won
Easier said than done
The devil fucking won
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can't escape
01:42
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I always feel so dead, I know it’s inside my head
Watch the darkness fold, my mind in two
I can’t focus on the positivity, can’t do simple activity
The wave of sadness roll right into me
Crashing down hard on my body
I can feel the darkness crawling into my mind
I swear to God light please don’t leave me behind
I’m trying to run but the devil’s got me
I can’t escape out of this reality
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don't freak out
03:16
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I can’t breathe and sit still
I have no self control
When it comes to emotions
And doing anything right
Try to help me if you want to
But my mind stops my body
From trying to get better
And doing anything right
I just wanna be able to live my life
As fucking normal as I was before
Can’t you see that I’m working it out?
Trying not to always freak out x2
Trying not to always freak out
Trying not to always freak out
I’m sorry if I ignore you
It’s really nothing personal
My mind starts to wander
It hates doing anything right
I just wanna be able to live my life
As fucking normal as I was before
Can’t you see that I’m working it out?
Trying not to always freak out
I just wanna be able to live my life
As fucking normal as I was before
Can’t you see that I’m working it out?
Trying not to always freak out
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Before I go Ima keep it simple
Don’t wanna go on and on
But I kinda wanna be alone
Got so many emotions
Don’t know where to start
I wanna die, no, I’m not okay
I wanna cry every fucking day
Yes I try to keep my mind at ease
But the fucking devil keeps bringing me down to his knees
I know I shouldn’t let him but he keeps pushing down
harder and harder, fuck I can’t breathe
can I get a minute please?
I’m so lightheaded, tight chested, little overheated, flustered and anxious
So depressed i can barely see
So please so please
I beg you to just lemme breathe
I need a break from society
It’s killing me, it’s killing me
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help me, save me
02:15
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My tears are dry now
Don’t know what to feel now
Please calm me somehow
You fucking took a vow
Tell me what it’s like to be happy all the time
I wanna know what it feels like to not be anxious all the time
Can you help me?
Can you save me?
Tell me it’ll pass away
Can you help me?
Can you save me?
It’ll never see the day
It takes over me
Never lets me breathe
Never lets me sleep
Never lets me do what i please
My tears are dry now
Don’t know what to feel now
Please calm me somehow
You fucking took a vow
Can never stay in control, it takes over my soul
Can you help me?
Can you save me?
Tell me it’ll pass away
Can you help me?
Can you save me?
It’ll never see the day
It takes over me
Never lets me breathe
Never lets me sleep
Never lets me do what i please
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not alone
03:30
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Didn't choose to grow up, in a world that's so cold
Everyone's unique, they all should be told!
But no, so much labels go around and round
Nobody's the same, don't say you're lame
You're not a freak, you're still a human being
Just has some different tastes, doesn't mean you're worthless
It's hard being here, here being difficult
Just know... you're not alone
You’re not alone
Just know... you're not alone
Take a stand, take a bow
You're in it, 'til the end
Work hard, stay strong
Be yourself, 'til the end
It's hard being here, here being difficult
Just know... you're not alone
You’re not alone
Just know... you're not alone
Fight, fight, fight, they keep telling me
I fucking know! I’m not alone, but I feel it, I fucking feel it
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vibe
03:50
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Just don’t kill my vibe
Been working overtime
Don’t need no dimes
Just doing what i like
Putting my mask on
Every day and every night
Don’t worry about time
I’ll be alright
I’m doing what I like
Don’t need no one’s help
Ima keep going up, until I lose myself
Fuck you, I don’t need you
Doing what I love
Just don’t kill, my vibe
Got so many memories
Gotta make these melodies
Don’t show me jealousy
It’s not a felony to make what I want
Not sticking to charts
Fuck all the numbers and fuck all the haters
I’m doing what I like
Don’t need no one’s help
Ima keep going up, until I lose myself
Fuck you, I don’t need you
Doing what I love
Just don’t kill, my vibe
I’m doing what I like
Don’t need no one’s help
Ima keep going up, until I lose myself
Fuck you, I don’t need you
Doing what I love
Just don’t kill, my vibe
I’m doing what I like
Don’t need no one’s help
Ima keep going up, until I lose myself
Fuck you, I don’t need you
Doing what I love
Just don’t kill, my vibe
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drift
03:05
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I wish we never did this
Lights out
I feel that you’re gone
Lights out
I know that you’re gone
Don’t throw me out into the trash
Don’t leave me now, i’m so attached
Wish you and I were fine
But we didn’t age like wine
You bought me down
Felt like I would drown
Wish we never laid back, kicked back
Now I’m out here, alone, in the cold
And I wish you we never talked, at all
And now I’m out here alone, in the dark
Thinking how did we
Thinking how did we
Drift, drift, drift
Drift, drift, drift
(How did we?)
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outro: grounding
01:30
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Ground yourself
Look at the ground
Listen to noises
Focus on smells
Breathe slowly
In and out
Close your eyes
Let your breath out
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